The Little Bird

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Perched above the world in his tree was the little songbird, carefree and singing a happy tune. He watched, sometimes, the humans below in the park, watching children and parents play and lovers flirt; he did not much care about the things he saw, except for a longing in his young bird’s breast for the interactions between parent and child that a bird his age, although just a fledgling himself, has long since been without. Every day he sang and watched in faint envy of the children whose parents still loved them, watching and envying and waiting for a lark of the finer gender with whom to share the nest he will soon begin to build.

One day, while watching the walking path and all those who traveled upon it, the young lark espied a young girl—a newcomer to City Park, someone he’d never laid eyes upon before—a beautiful girl, probably no older than fourteen, and he in his fluttery heart fell in love, in a way that was unnatural for a young bird.

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This girl came to the park every day and sat beneath his tree to listen to his song, with her pen and notebook, splashing beautiful words of poetry upon the lined pages therein. With each word the little lark read, the deeper into love he fell with this human girl—and more desperate he became. The young songbird cried to God in his beaked fashion to make her love him, to make him human so that he may truly meet her and be hers. And as if his prayer had been answered, one day a sorcerer came to the little lark’s tree in Central Park and spoke unto him:

“So you wish to win the love of this lady, do you?”

The little bird chirped his affirmation.

“I can make you human,” the sorcerer told him. “In exchange for your services, I will make you human so that you may enamor that girl. But if you will not carry out those commands which I give you, you will be a songbird again in an instant. Do you take my offer, lark?”

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A beautiful song erupted from the tree from the fledgling’s joy. He hopped from the tree and fluttered down onto the sorcerer’s finger, who in turn put the little bird down upon the earth. The sorcerer chanted over the bird, blocking him with his wide frame from prying eyes. As he chanted, the bird became a boy, about twelve, to match his youth as a bird; a brown-haired, blue-eyed, nameless boy.

Once the transformation was complete, the old sorcerer nodded gravely. “Now you are indebted to me, dear lark. Do you understand?”

The boy lark nodded, forming the word with his newly acquired human lips: “Yes.”

“Be on your way, lark; but do not leave the park. I will return when I have a task for you. Until then, good luck with your human girl.”

And then the sorcerer disappeared.

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The fledgling boy walked carefully and uncertainly to the playground, which had seemed so far from his home but was now only a short walk away. He played, alone, curiously, with the equipment that had once indeed towered over his tiny bird’s form, that now he, unbeknown to him, was almost already too big as a boy to play upon.

Once he had satisfied himself, he sat on a bench next to the playground to watch for the mysterious girl. He watched her walk up the path toward the tree hours later, and saw her look up into the tree for the little bird that had always accompanied her. When she saw that he was not there, before the boy lark could stand, she had turned and begun to walk home. He ran clumsily to catch up with her.

“Wait!” he cried, breathlessly, from a few steps behind her.

The girl stopped, and turned to him.

“Hi,” the boy said, sheepishly. “My name is.. Lark.”

The girl replied with an uncertain “Hi…”

The two stood staring at each other for a moment, as Lark realized that he had nothing to actually say to her. All he knew about human life was from what he had observed from his life in the tree; he did not know what they talked about, or how otherwise they interacted. The girl eventually turned and walked off, without another word, not even her name.

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The girl did not return to the park for a long time; but in the meantime, the old sorcerer did. By the time he did, Lark was growing hungry; he had found that his human body did not like the berries to which his bird’s body had been accustomed. “Steal,” the sorcerer instructed. “No one will give charity; you shall have to steal for your meals.”

This was not such a difficult task, as people often picnicked at the park. Lark learned to sneak about and stole easily, eating well every lunchtime, although he always went to bed hungry. All that kept him going was the thought of that beautiful girl who did not mention her name.

Even as the boy, Lark observed. He tried to learn from watching how he should approach the girl when next he saw her, and took to heart the lovers’ interactions. He imagined that if he treated her those ways, that she could do nothing but love him.

When the girl returned to the park, looking to the tree for her little songbird, Lark came to her. She looked at him curiously, and at the same time suspiciously. “Oh,” she said. “It’s you again.”

Lark hesitated for a moment, then took her hand in one of his. He smiled at her, shyly. “I love you.” he told her. Then, uncertainly: “Will you marry me?”

The girl stared at him, blankly for a moment. Then she pulled her hand away from his with a look of anger on her face. “Do you think that’s funny? You don’t even know my name.” she responded. “Leave me alone!”

She stormed off, back out of the park, leaving Lark to his confusion. He did not know what he had done, but he knew that he had certainly failed to win the girl’s heart. In his woe he laid on the bench upon which he slept and cried, knowing not what else to do. He lay this way for many hours.

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The sorcerer came to him much later that day, and the boy recounted what had happened to him. A solution came quickly to the old sorcerer: “Kill her.”

“What?”

“She does not want you, so she obviously does not matter, Lark. Get rid of her.”

Lark stared wide-eyed at the sorcerer. “I would never do that!”

The sorcerer’s eyes were filled with anger. “I command you so, boy.” he said, sternly.

“I would never kill her. I love her.”

“Then you will be a bird once again,” the sorcerer sneered.

And so with a long magical chant, the sorcerer used his magic to turn the twelve-year-old boy back into a fledgling lark, picking him up in his large, old hands, and putting the songbird back into his tree. “And thus you shall stay,” the old, evil sorcerer said. With that, he disappeared, never to return to the park.

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The girl, though, she returned, and upon seeing the little bird in his tree once again, she sat beneath it with her poetry book and her ink pen. The lark’s heart still jumped with excitement at seeing her, and he fluttered down from the tree and onto the earth before her.

“Hello, little bird,” the girl said, cheerily. “How are you today?”

Lark chirped his chipper reply, and the girl giggled at his responsiveness.

He hopped over to her, in the cautious manner of a small bird. The girl put her notebook down next to herself and shifted from her lean against the tree, to reach out to him. Lark hopped onto her finger, cocking his head to the side with a bird’s smile wide across his face.

“My name is Andrea,” the girl told the little bird. “Do you want to come home with me?”

Yes, Andrea, yes! Lark replied in his bird-tongue.

Andrea stood and picked up her notebook in her unoccupied hand, then walking with the lark cupped in her palm, cooing at him as she went. Lark was overjoyed and ruffled his feathers contentedly in the warmth of her hand.

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When Andrea got Lark home, she set him alone in a little bird cage in her bedroom, where for years to come he would sit, lonely, as the beautiful girl returned to the park to write her poetry to another bird’s song and hardly gave her lark at home a second thought.

Physician-Assisted Suicide: Compassion, Not Crime

Physician-assisted suicide has always been a very controversial subject in society—the ancient Greeks brought the subject to forum, as euthanasia in Greece and in Rome was an everyday issue. It is even written in the Hippocratic Oath (written in the 4th century B.C.E.), “I will not give a lethal drug to anyone if I am asked, nor will I advise such a plan” (“Hippocratic”). Today both euthanasia and physician-assisted suicide are still tough topics to tussle with, in our society and around the world.

Although the terms “physician-assisted suicide” and “euthanasia” have been used interchangeably, there is a distinct difference between the two. The name “physician-assisted suicide” may be self-explanatory: it is a patient dosing themselves on medicine prescribed by their attending physician while the doctor is not present in the patient’s room, and it is the patient’s decision whether to use the drugs or not, and when. (“Physician”) Euthanasia, on the other hand, is more aggressive; the doctor actually administers the drug to the patient which subsequently causes their death. In this paper I am going to address physician-assisted suicide specifically.

I am arguing for PAS on four bases: first, that refusal to allow it is a violation of the inherent right to self-determination of the terminally ill; second, that it can save patients and family, as well as health care providers, money; third, that physician-assisted suicide could save patients and families the trauma that comes with the uncertainty of natural and slow death; and fourth, that PAS is actually much more humane than allowing a suffering patient to die naturally.

Patients should have the choice of physician-assisted suicide, because it is a manifestation of their right to self-determination as it is interpreted from the Constitution. The Supreme Court ruled in Planned Parenthood v Casey (Leo) that “choices central to personal dignity and autonomy are central to the liberty protected by the 14th Amendment. At the heart of liberty is the right to define one’s own concept of existence, of meaning, of the universe and of the mystery of human life.” This translates simply to the idea that one should have the final say about what happens to one’s body, outside of the realm of directly harming others.

Physician-assisted suicide can save patients, their families, and health care providers significant amounts of money. One Hospice Care professional cited a hospice care cost at roughly $6,000 per two months per patient (“Hospice”). Much or most of this is funded through Medicare or Medicaid, although both of these services are costly to these patients on top of their already high hospital care bills. Much of the money going toward hospice could be more advantageously propagated to medical research, children’s hospitals, and other medical programs that have unstable funding but serve functions crucial to the health of our society as well as other countries that rely on our medical breakthroughs. Outside of the realm of hospice care, “[a]ccording to recent Medicare data, for a beneficiary who dies of cancer after receiving conventional care, $30,397 (in 1995 dollars) is spent on medical care in the last year of life” (Emanuel and Battin). This includes medications that cost upwards of $4,000 a month, which may or may not be covered by Medicare (James).

The self-dosing of PAS could save patients and their families the pain and heartbreak that comes with prolonged dying and the uncertainty that accompanies it. It allows patients to decide when to end their own suffering, which gives family and friends ample time to say what they need to say to their suffering loved one.

Lastly, physician-assisted suicide is more humane due to the drugs prescribed and taken than letting terminally ill patients suffer until death. In the Netherlands they use high doses of barbiturates for PAS; this type of drug affects the central nervous system, and causes sleepiness. Barbiturates are a central nervous system depressant (CNS), used to calm patients before surgery and can be used to control seizures, sleep problems, and nervousness, although other drugs have begun to replace barbiturates in these last two areas (“Barbiturates: Purpose”). A barbiturate overdose can be likened to dying in one’s sleep; anxiety levels decrease and heart rate and respiration reduce (“Barbiturates Drug Information”), which is much more peaceful than the months leading up to death from the patient’s terminal illness.

One might argue that physician-assisted suicide is, at its basest, still simply suicide, and that if we as a country allow for the terminally ill to commit suicide, who is to say that we won’t extend this right to those who are depressed? Are we not denying this right of self-determination to them if we refuse physician-assisted suicide to them? I do agree that this could become an issue if PAS was legalized, but whereas such conditions as depression can be treated through medication, terminal illness can only be micromanaged, not cured, nor can the subsequent death be prevented once a patient is in such poor condition that a doctor will classify them as terminally ill. One might also argue that suicide in either form does directly affect the patient’s loved ones, but in the end, the one who suffers the most during the dying process is the patient who is dying.

“Key” Evidence

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“You didn’t have to take me to dinner, you know,” Kaden assured me again. Kaden Paolo had been my best friend for years, and he had just turned 26 years old a week ago. Chaos had broken loose for me that day and I had to miss his party. So I promised him I’d take him to eat at Olive Garden, and so there we were that Friday night.

“Yes, I did,” I replied. “If I didn’t keep my promise I’d be an asshole like everyone else I know.” I didn’t even bother to add the Except for you disclaimer, because he, despite being my best friend for years, was not exactly the most reliable, either; and I often found him on my shit list along with family, friends, co-workers, and random passersby who jaywalk during my commute to work. The waiter walked by carrying a tray and little table for another table, and I raised my arm quickly and called after him: “Excuse me, I’d like my check, please!”

Kaden and I sat chatting about work for a few minutes before the waiter came with our bill, tucked nicely into a little leather booklet. “Thank you,” I said to him, before he walked away. We had both demolished our dinners and were in no need of boxes.

“I didn’t mean to order the most expensive thing on the menu,” Kaden apologized, before I even opened the booklet. He adjusted his glasses on his nose like he was nervous. As if I hadn’t looked up what he had ordered on the menu before the waiter took our orders to see if I wanted what he was having.

“My God, will you shut up? I recommended it to you. Shut up and digest your birthday present.” I took up the bill and pulled my card out of my pants pocket, prepared to pay whatever price I owed with my trusty debit card. I opened the bill, and there it was: $26.99 for Kaden’s steak, $16.99 for my shrimp pasta dish, and $0.99 for both of our sodas. Beneath the total of $48.72 was a note, scrawled diagonally on the bottom of the bill sheet in bright red pen:

We have sights set on your friend, Miss Banagher. Snipers. Give me the key and I’ll call them off. Consider this my tip to you.

Marco

 


 

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