The Journal of Brian Ezhno

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August 31, 2001 – Friday, 10:39pm

I had to read The Diary of Anne Frank for my English 10 Honors class over the summer. I already switched out of honors and into regular English, but I actually read the book. It was kind of interesting to read. By the end of the book it seemed like writing a diary would be a good idea. It’s supposed to be cathartic, and a way to organize your thoughts, and if there’s anything I need it’s those two things. I knew by the end of the book that there was a reason I had been assigned to read it. It was the hand of God (or something like that) telling me, Hey, this is what you gotta do. So, I’m doing it.

Anne’s diary had a name. I can’t remember why she named it Kitty, and I don’t really care all that much. Mine I’m going to call Henry. I miss Henry. I was 4 years old when he died and I still can’t get over it. So maybe whoever wanted me to read Anne Frank also wants me to contact my brother somehow. Maybe it was Henry who told me to read Anne Frank so I’d know how to get in touch with him. It must be boring in Heaven.

So, Henry, I guess you’re wondering what I’ve got going on, to read The Diary of Anne Frank and think of myself. I’ve been having some problems since maybe 6th grade that I’ve never told anyone about. I think maybe there’s something wrong with me, but I don’t think I’d want to admit it even if I knew for sure. And since you died, I swear, Mom and Dad’ve acted like it was my fault. No fucking help there. But anyway, I think…. Well, no. I’ll just tell you a story.

The summer before I started middle school, everything started to get… different. Everything started changing. I don’t mean like hitting puberty and that shit, but literally changing in front of my eyes. One morning Dad came down the stairs and melted into the carpet. I ran to the bathroom to grab a towel to soak him up with, and when I came back he was sitting at the breakfast table like nothing had happened. Once Liz strangled the cat till its eyes rolled back into its head, then she dropped it and the cat just walked away. It even shook its head and the bell on its collar jingled. Liz gave me a funny look when I gaped at the cat, and told me I was weird.

When school started I ditched all my friends from elementary school. They all hated me anyway, and I decided I hated them, too. The voices didn’t come till later. But they did come.

I’m tired now. I’ll finish my story tomorrow, probably, or something like that. Sleep well on your angel clouds, Henry.

“Key” Evidence

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“You didn’t have to take me to dinner, you know,” Kaden assured me again. Kaden Paolo had been my best friend for years, and he had just turned 26 years old a week ago. Chaos had broken loose for me that day and I had to miss his party. So I promised him I’d take him to eat at Olive Garden, and so there we were that Friday night.

“Yes, I did,” I replied. “If I didn’t keep my promise I’d be an asshole like everyone else I know.” I didn’t even bother to add the Except for you disclaimer, because he, despite being my best friend for years, was not exactly the most reliable, either; and I often found him on my shit list along with family, friends, co-workers, and random passersby who jaywalk during my commute to work. The waiter walked by carrying a tray and little table for another table, and I raised my arm quickly and called after him: “Excuse me, I’d like my check, please!”

Kaden and I sat chatting about work for a few minutes before the waiter came with our bill, tucked nicely into a little leather booklet. “Thank you,” I said to him, before he walked away. We had both demolished our dinners and were in no need of boxes.

“I didn’t mean to order the most expensive thing on the menu,” Kaden apologized, before I even opened the booklet. He adjusted his glasses on his nose like he was nervous. As if I hadn’t looked up what he had ordered on the menu before the waiter took our orders to see if I wanted what he was having.

“My God, will you shut up? I recommended it to you. Shut up and digest your birthday present.” I took up the bill and pulled my card out of my pants pocket, prepared to pay whatever price I owed with my trusty debit card. I opened the bill, and there it was: $26.99 for Kaden’s steak, $16.99 for my shrimp pasta dish, and $0.99 for both of our sodas. Beneath the total of $48.72 was a note, scrawled diagonally on the bottom of the bill sheet in bright red pen:

We have sights set on your friend, Miss Banagher. Snipers. Give me the key and I’ll call them off. Consider this my tip to you.

Marco

 


 

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La chute de la maison des Moreau.

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When the biographer Burke Desjardins sat down with me in his personal study, I was immediately stricken by a tension that tugged at my chest. He was nice enough; when I took my place in the cushioned chair across from him, he shook my hand cordially and asked me how I was doing. But I could tell he wanted to get down to business. He wanted to know about what happened to the Moreau family, and that was all he wanted to know.

….

“Before we get started,” Mr. Desjardins said, after clearing his throat, “for the record: I need your full name, and your relation to the Moreaus.” He looked at me as he spoke, and looked down quickly to his pad of paper as if my words would escape him and be lost forever if he didn’t have them written as soon as they were spoken.

I replied dully, “My full name is Jules Dashiell Lambert, I worked as a servant in their household for a little over half my life.”

“How many years is that?”

“About seven years, Monsieur.”

M. Desjardins scribbled this down, and I wondered if he would be able to read it, it seemed to take him no time at all. As soon as he was done writing, he looked at me thoughtfully, then jotted something else down, what I figured was a description of some sort. Once he’d gotten down what he wanted, he looked up, ushering, “Let’s start from the beginning, shall we?”

I shrugged, but he didn’t seem to notice. “How do I start?”

“You can start where you started, if you’d like. Maybe start with the first time you noticed something odd about les Moreau.”

….

For a moment I was silent, gathering my thoughts and finding the beginnings; when I started, and when the strange started; and I found that they coincided. “Well… Monsieur Elroy Moreau took me in when I was seven years old from a poor, neglective homelife,…

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He told me he would shelter me and that the other servants would take care of me until I grew to be more independent, and I would have food and a bedroom and they would pay me for my service every month. I left home and never bothered telling my parents goodbye; they never seemed to notice I was gone anyway.

Elroy Moreau was a tall bald man, with a dark complexion and piercingly blue eyes. His gut protruded as the mark of a well-to-do entrepreneur, and he always wore a firm, concentrating expression, like he always had something vexing that he was mulling over in his brain. He was a very successful man in Tulles; he owned the town’s funeral home, which also ironically was a doctor’s office as well, and this earned him a healthy salary. He was a shrewd businessman, but a lousy father.

The Moreau children were known possibly more prominently than their father. There were three of them, two sons and one precious daughter. Severin Moreau was the oldest, at fourteen years when I became a servant in the maison. No one knew what to make of him, but they all had a deep fear of him. He resembled his father more closely than his siblings, but with almost-black hair and vacant black eyes, darkly attractive in his own right. Not even the staff in the Moreau home dared to approach Severin, especially when he was in a foul mood—he had a raging temper like no one in Tulles had ever imagined possible.

Aure, who was two years younger than Severin, was the Moreaus’ cherished only daughter. She was the most beautiful young woman in Tulles, and every young man knew it. Her blonde hair grew long and curled at the tips, she had a naturally tan complexion, and her eyes shone like bright blue stars. She had virtually no temper, from what anyone outside of the family knew; and her brother Severin did not dare to raise a hand to her, even in the worst of his rages—she seemed to be the only one who could soothe him.

The youngest was three years my senior. Royce was a pallid boy, strongly taking after his mother. His hair was dark blonde, and his green eyes were set in a round boyish face, even once he had reached his teen years. Royce was as much his mother’s son as Aure was her father’s daughter, and he almost never left her side.